What Does it Mean?

The words stung like nothing before and that is saying something as I am no stranger to tragedy or adversity.  I had been asking the question for nearly three years but now that someone was willing to answer the question-I wished I would have never asked.

Is it better to know?  Of course, it is.

Will I be able to come to terms with it? In good time.

What are the next steps? Fight, fight like I have never fought before.

Caroline is engaging, hardworking, funny, and joyful.  She also doesn't sleep often, is fed through a g-tube, has over a 40% developmental delay, and is medically involved.  And now, one of the best developmental pediatricians in Chicago feels like, "Caroline is on the Spectrum...she is not a typical presentation but she is on the Spectrum."

When I heard those words, the first thing I thought was at least we have an answer. But I didn't stay there long, I immediately drifted to do I agree with diagnosis? And have been stuck at what does this mean...for Caroline, for our family, for me??